Ok so the long delay was definitely my fault. It's been a crazy month or so. I'm a little wired so I decided to take this opportunity to write again. I should be back to writing every couple days now.
So I had this thought today. You know, God is a lot like a hurricane. As I was watching the storm roll past today and listening to the tornado sirens I was thinking about how awesome God is. I mean an awe-struck sort of awesome. Not like a “high-five and give a thumbs up” awesome. My friend was telling me how the plane he was flying in on had to go around this storm and he said it was like this light show going off. It amazes me the detail He put in to creation; but that’s not what this is about.
I was relaying to people my views on storms while I was at the coffee house tonight. To me a bad storm, tornados or not, is nothing compared to a hurricane that hovers over your state for 24 hours. I began to think about hurricanes and as I was talking to my friend tonight, I realized that God really is a lot like a hurricane in the sense that the eye of the hurricane, the direct center of its purpose, is exactly where you want to be.
This may be religious mumbo-jumbo to you, but to me, it’s what I’ve relied on for the past almost six years of my life, and more so these past two years being out here at school in Oklahoma. I was scared before I moved. As a matter of fact even after I moved I was scared for quite some time. Not because I moved or because I started school but because I had lost control. I knew the next step I had to take had nothing to do with me except my willingness to submit. I once heard someone say that it’s not submission until it’s something you don’t want to do. I can honestly say that dropping everything and moving out to the middle of the country to pursue an education so that I could go into ministry was pretty far down on my list of things to do, but I still obeyed.
I blindly left my home, my job, my church, my family, my friends, and I followed a path where I could barely see but a few inches ahead of me. To this day I’m still walking. Yet in all this, I’ve never felt better. I’ve never had more peace or joy than knowing that I’m right in the middle of where He wants me. I may have made mistakes and I know I may have drifted from that eye at times, but it was the strong wind that made me realize I liked it better in the calm; and every once in a while I’d have the gust come through or the debris fly in, but I never lost focus on the One Who’s leading.
I can’t say that it’s been easy and I can’t say I’ve done everything right, but I can say that I still have peace knowing that I’m still where He wants me even if I fell in a couple potholes on the way and even if I didn’t handle some things like I know I should have. I know this is a random tangent and I don’t know if anyone else will understand nor get anything from it, but maybe I just needed to vent and reflect back on what these past couple years have been like. That’s all for now… Another will come soon.
