I thought long and hard about what to write in this entry and to be perfectly honest, I got nothing. I began to write about intimacy with God but I quickly realized I’m just not ready for that yet.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately; about life in general both past, present, and future. I’ve been thinking about what God has brought me out of, what He is doing in me now, and what in the world He has in store for me later. I once panicked at the thought of serving God in the capacity to which I have been able to serve Him now. Yet as every day passes and I begin to turn each area of my life back to my first love, I realize how less and less scary it gets. My once fevered thoughts of the magnitude of the call have been replaced by dreams too big for me to complete on my own and though my flesh hates it, my spirit is absolutely ecstatic.
I wonder sometimes if God is as ecstatic about His plans for us as we are. He’s known me for a long time and He’s had a lot of time to think about this moment. Same goes for every single person. God formed each of us, breathed in His life, saw our lives end from beginning, and thought, “This is gonna be great”
This wasn’t really meant to be some sappy post, but sometimes, I think it’s a good idea to remember that He really likes me; even when I don’t like myself. Even when I don’t think He should like me. He may be concerned with every part of my life, but I’m certainly glad He chooses to ignore my opinions every now and then.
"I once listened to an Indian on television say that God was in the wind and the
water, and I wondered at how beautiful that was because it meant you could swim in Him
or have Him brush your face in a breeze. I am early in my story, but I believe I will
stretch out into eternity, and in heaven I will reflect upon these early days, these days
when it seemed God was down a dirt road, walking toward me. Years ago He was a
swinging speck in the distance; now He is close enough I can hear His singing. Soon I
will see the lines on His face."
water, and I wondered at how beautiful that was because it meant you could swim in Him
or have Him brush your face in a breeze. I am early in my story, but I believe I will
stretch out into eternity, and in heaven I will reflect upon these early days, these days
when it seemed God was down a dirt road, walking toward me. Years ago He was a
swinging speck in the distance; now He is close enough I can hear His singing. Soon I
will see the lines on His face."
Donald Miller - Blue Like Jazz
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